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10/16/2002 entry: "Oh yeah, a late P.S."

By the way, I've decided that I put a little too much into my journal. I've known for a while now that I disclose more information in here than I actually do with people. That was actually one of the problems Kevin and I had. I always said too much in here, and he would be upset because I wasn't telling him.

So, I think I'm going to cool it a bit on the personal information. If you really care to hear it all, you know where to reach me.

Not to say I'm going to go all cold and never describe emotion in here. But I tend to take things a little too far, and I'd like to change that.

Tonight, Sara and I are getting together. Maybe we can get dinner. Hmm.. well, if we both have money.. I'm not sure that I do! Oh, wait, I have some. Yes. Food. I'm hungry now. I haven't eaten all day, save a bowl of cereal and a couple Nilla cookies.

Yes, I'd like to change things. And, I think I'm finally figuring out how.

1) Always give myself time to work through emotions before I start explaining things! Giving a situation or experience a day or two can make things much clearer, and I usually have arrived at some final idea or feeling about it all.

2) Stop being so open and intimate in my journal about things that I shouldn't be. Intimate details are only for friends and loved ones. Only in rare cases will I succumb to that state. Because it just seems to bring about more and more trouble as time goes on.

Last thing,.. Kevin, I hope by Monday you feel better, because I am truly sorry that I said what I said, where I said it. I think this was the final situation to really make me change what I'm doing. I never meant to hurt you, no matter how the situation seems to you. I didn't want to hurt anybody, I was just venting and ranting and running my mouth off when I shouldn't have been. I've learned my lesson, really. So I hope you can trust me and be comfortable around me again in the near future.