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10/25/2002 entry: "Dammit!! Dammit dammit dammit!"

I've been doing alright in terms of dreams. I've had a couple with Kevin in them, but nothing that really got to me yet.

Last night, I had a dream that we were together again. But, that he broke up with me. Twice. For two different girls.

Let me explain, a bit. In my dream, the reason he had to break up with me twice, is because there seemed to be more than one girlfriend function that I was performing, and he decided to break it up between a couple girls. Yeah.

Although, when we were together, it was neat because we were talking about.. books or movies or something. Maybe both together. Oh well.

I still miss him a lot. It's funny, pretty much anything I do I can think of a story related to it that involves him. And, I still bring him up when talking to someone, like saying "Oh yeah, Kevin mentioned that, he said ----". Sometimes, when other things in my life aren't quite going right, I think about how just lying somewhere in his arms would make me feel so much better. He is the kind of person that can do that.. yeah.

So, yeah I slept kind of crappily last night. But today's Friday, so I at least have that to look forward to.

Though, it's raining. Yuck.

But, I have to try and be positive. I don't want to seem too down today. It just wouldn't do any good.