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12/25/2002 entry: "I have no witty title for today."

So, I don't know what you want me to say? Something about Christmas? Eh, fuck Christmas. I'm sorry but I have been in a horrible mood today. And, I still am. Mostly because of getting together with my family I guess, though I know that sounds horrible. I just really didn't want to be there.

I have on thing to say. You idiots out there, Christmas doesn't make your problems go away. When you're a kid, you feel like it does. Well this Christmas I realized it doesn't mean shit in that way. Problems don't go away. They're not only going to be there afterwards, they're there the whole fucking time.

Yeah, I like giving people stuff. Yeah, I like the presents part. But it all feels worthless after it's all said and done.

So, anyhow. I saw a bunch of It's a Wonderful Life today for the first time. Very depressing. Yeah, that was the last thing I needed to see.

I don't care if they had no honeymoon, were usually broke and had to live in a condemned house. It still pissed me off because it's a movie and I knew everything would be fine in the end. Because at least... well, the at least doesn't matter. Fuck it. Fuck everything.

Yeah Merry fucking Christmas. I'm going upstairs to find some way to relieve all this tension and anger and depression.