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01/04/2003 entry: "Watch where you stray"

It's that time of the year again, where I bitch about having to move back and forth from school to home and home to school again.

This time, I think I have a better idea of where the hell I'm going.

Everyone thinks when you know your major, you've got direction. You know what you want to do. Ah, fuck that. I haven't known what I'm doing ever in my entire life. I just thought I did.

The truth is, I'm just gathering experience like everyone else. Maybe I'll be a counselor, maybe I won't. Maybe I'll work in libraries all my life. Maybe I'll work with computers like my dad someday. Or maybe, I'll finally get some sort of recognition for my music (when I get better at it).

So what am I going to be when I grow up? Half dead and still wandering around in the dark.

But, I do know what I want to do after I graduate now. YES. And I'm much happier with this decision than I ever was when I was thinking about graduate schools.

I'm going to get a job, a real one. I'm going to work to move out and live on my own somewhere. And I'm going to take online classes at the Art Institute Online (a program from the Art Institute of Pittsburgh). I'm going to get some sort of degree in Web Design. Then I'll be totally certified to work on websites and with media. I don't know what kind of job I'll get. I can work in any library. I'll have 4 years of experience in a library under my belt (well, 5 if you include working as a book pusher for a year before college). I can work in an office. I can work in a bookstore if worse comes to worse. I can work as some sort of counselor or assistant. I dunno. Something like that.

Maybe I'll write or do websites or sell artwork for extra money. Maybe Sara and I will finally set up her business.

But I do know, that I don't want to live in this house for much longer after I graduate, and I know I want a full time job, and I know I want to get a degree in web design. And that's all I need to know.

So yeah, anyhow. What was I bitching about? Oh yeah. Moving back to school. 5 more terms until I can get started.

I guess I can wait that long. It'll be worth it.